Monday, April 30, 2007 . 2:27 AM

I saw you today
The atmosphere
Was different
But,
In a better way
But still
It remains.

- For TBISAEMOTB

Friday, April 27, 2007 . 5:59 AM

If only I could
Do something
To have
Your love [Your attention]

If only I could
Do something
For you to give me
That look [behind your eyes]

If only I could
Do something

To just have you
To just love you
To just lean on you
To just cry on your shoulder
To just have you as
My comfort,
My shelter,
My only
Hope.

- For TBISAEMOTB

A bottomless pit,
An endless tunnel,
A never ending hole,
Something that goes on forever. I'll
Go down the pit,
Crawl through the tunnel
Fall down the hole, forever
Going on, going, crawling, falling
Getting cut and bruised,
Scraped and grazed,
Along the way.
Just like my search for your soul
Knowing that you,
I will never find
But still, I'm
Going, crawling, falling,
Forever

- For TBISAEMOTB

Thursday, April 26, 2007 . 4:57 AM

I saw him today.

No big deal, just the same thing ...

Like every other day.

Health Checkup was today.

Height and weight, "body" checkup, and the immunization. [Injection, for the people in class who couldn't be bothered to read the sign. Hah.]

The second injection was more painful than the first, and my left arm is still aching now.

Both times when I was injected, I turned my head to catch the gory sight of a metal point stuck in my skin, and both the nurses said "DON'T MOVE!"

The bitter medicine they asked us to swallow was ...

...

Well ...

BITTER.

It was still cool that I went for something I didn't want to go for at first.

Wednesday, April 25, 2007 . 2:04 AM

There's something
About you,
That makes my heart
Jump up, and twist

Whenever I think
Of your face
There's something about you
That gives me the adrenalin

There's something
About you
That makes me

Hate you,
Love you,
Envy you,
Despise you,

All at the
Same time
I don't know
Why

- For TBISAEMOTB

This morning
I didn't see you
Only the boy
You used to wait
For the bus with
Once again,
I think you're
Avoiding me,
And so on [Blah-di-blah]
But strangely,
When I
Got to school,
I felt no pain,
The type of pain
You always give me
When I see you

[I say again, I hate and love you, both]

- For TBISAEMOTB

I want to get over you
To forget about you
Now,
And forever
I want to get over you
To not picture
Your face in my head
Now,
And forever
I want to get over you
To not let you
Be in my thoughts,
Now,
And forever
I want to get over you
To not be eager to see you
Every morning,
Now,
And forever
I want to get over you
To not love you,
Now,
And forever
But I still
Want you to love me,
Now,
And forever

- For TBISAEMOTB

I would
Cut my wrist
Let the blood come out
Because of you
I would
Bleed to death
Finally
Because of you
I would
Be a wandering spirit
In search of your love
Because of you
I would
Find you, eventually
And be visible to your eye
I will let this be in your mind:
The pain you caused me
You cut my soul
Caused my death
And
I have come to realize
I both hate and love
You

- For TBISAEMOTB [24/04/07]

This morning,
I saw you reading
An SMS
A sort of dimwitted smile
Crossed your face
You're sixteen,
Why wouldn't you
Have a girlfriend?
You're damn sophisticated,
Why wouldn't you
Have admirers?
I'm just twelve,
In your eyes,
A puny primary school kid
Who will
Never earn,
Never get,
Never receive
Your affection.

- For TBISAEMOTB [24/04/07]

Sunday, April 22, 2007 . 11:49 PM

Will I
Ever
Find the warmth
Of your hand?
Will I
Ever
Have
Your love?
Will you
Ever
Stop
To help me?
Will you
Ever
Get me
Back on my feet?
Will you
Ever
Try
To find me?
Will you
Ever
Help me
When I fall?
Or..
Will you
Hate me
Forever?

- For TBISAEMOTB

My thoughts
Prompt me
That your purposely
Ignore me
Looking through
My soul
Turning away,
Giving me the
Cold shoulder
Tell me straight,
Don't prolong
The pain

- For TBISAEMOTB

Hate
Despise
Is probably what
You feel about her
You're waiting
To grip the knife
To cut her skin
Leaving slashes,
Cuts,
Pain.
Gaping lines,
Leaking blood,
That will never wash off

- For TBISAEMOTB

Friday, April 20, 2007 . 6:19 PM

The reason why I keep calling him "him" is because I don't even know his name.

So I guess you all know what I'm experiencing.

And he's like, sixteen.

So I guess you all know I've lost all my sanity.

...

You left me
Cold, shivering
Down the alleyway
Surrounded by a realm
Of darkness
As bats flap by
Going on their
Late night search
For food
I crouch on
The rough ground
And took out the amulet
You gave me
Long ago
Resting in the
Palm of my hand
I look at it
One last time,
Throw it down
The drain
And continue
My walk
To home

I just penned it down, randomly.
Has no relation to TBISAEMOTB whatsoever.
Sigh.

What if I lose all inspiration?
What if I never see him again?

Okay, these are all what if's. Let's hope it's not true.

If I don't see
You
I kind of
Lose
Inspiration
If I don't see
You
...
What if?

WHY IS THIS SO?

I found out that I need to look at him for inspiration.

No him, no inspiration, no poems.

I didn't see him today.

Does that have any relation on why I felt weird this morning?

The story about the Korean guy who shot 32 people was devastating.

Really sad.

See what the spirit of death and violence can do to people?

Thursday, April 19, 2007 . 1:45 AM

Rain
Softly splashing down upon the eaves of your house
The sky,
Matching the grey shade of your eyes,
As you stood in the rain,
Your element,
You used to say,
Clad in a grey sweatshirt,
That fading blue pair of jeans
I bought you last summer,
Brown doc martens,
Laced up.
I notice on lace trailing
In a puddle,
Hands shoved deep inside your pocket,
Like that last fair
You wanted to buy me a present,
But had no money.
The half-smile,
Always dangling over your lips,
Laughter dancing in your eyes,
As the rain,
Slides slowly through your tousled hair
No sunlight reached your mind,
You were happiest in the rain,
To get wet
Helped you think, you told me,
Torrents,
Sheets,
Seperating,
Parting.
Like a sheet of glass.
I am dry, holding a red umbrella.
You always loved the cold,
Wore shades of grey,
Like an embodiment of rain itself,
Watching you,
Standing in the rain.
That last photo we took,
Me holding the camera,
In shelter
While you walked away

- By Lee Yue Lin, Inspiration from Rain

A favourite poem of mine.

When you are
In my sight
It's like
I bleed,
Heavily,
Somewhat close
To death
I know,
I will never earn
Your
Affection,
As you
Slash my
Skin,
Every morning.

- For TBISAEMOTB

Love at first sight
It's actually
...
Quite painful
You like
Someone,
The someone,
You do not know
He may
Like you back,
Or so you think,
But wake up to reality
He dosen't
Like you
Back,
So forget
It

- For TBISAEMOTB

I see you
[Almost] every morning
At the bus stop
You stand watching
The cars drive by.
We board
The same bus
You take the seat
Opposite me
Your ebony black hair
Stray locks
Falling into
Your face
As your eyelids
Close,
Like you're trying to find
Something
In the still darkness
You can't find
Anything
The bell rings
As you rise
Glance quickly
At me
And
Alight

- For TBISAEMOTB

You are like a rose -
Petals,
A vibrant red,
But your thorns -
Is a different story

You are like a rose -
Beautiful,
But your thorns -
Is a different story

You are like a rose
Growing
Well,
But your thorns -
Is a different story

You are like a rose -
Withering
Now your thorns -
Is the same story

Thursday, April 12, 2007 . 5:45 AM

I have been trying to upload my cousin's wedding photos but everytime I try the internet disconnects.

It's either my computer or singnet who has a problem with Blogger.

All my computers always have a sitch with Blogger. [Okay, FINE, there were only two computers, including the one I'm using now, but that's good enough for me.]

Maybe I should get my dad to switch to Starhub?

Tuesday, April 10, 2007 . 3:08 AM

My cousin Chern Wei and [presently] cousin-in-law Christina, are now officially married.

Sigh.

We only won 2 matches out of 6.

Depressing.

We lost to CHIJ Katong, 7 - 8.

We lost to Temasek, 12 - 6.

Wednesday, April 4, 2007 . 2:58 AM

Winter -
The wind
Flies past
With furious
Flakes of snow
Winter -
The ground
Is carpeted
With snow
White,
As a sheet
Winter -
Snowflakes
Gently, slowly
Calmly, quietly
Drop to the ground
Blending in
With the
Snow-white sheet
Winter

Amber,
Crimson,
Streaked across
The sky
The sun,
Setting sun
Above the
Grey Ocean -
Sunset

You used to
Be fun
You used to
Be goofy
You used to
Be you
Now
You are
Someone I don't
Know
Now you are
A stranger to
Me
Now you
Really are
A distorted reflection
Of who you really
Were

I awake
To the sound
Of forks and spoons
Clanging
I awake
To the sound
Of talking
I awake
To Sunday Morning

I open
The gate
I close it behind me
A streak of
Gold-brown comes out
The front door
Toward me
My bundle
Of joy

The wind
Blows, whistles
The rain
I hear it
Loud on the awning
The grass
Drowns
In the muddy
Rainwater
The birds
Try
To seek shelter
Me,
I sit [staring out the window]
Watching the many
Droplets
Fall down
How I love
The rain

Sunday, April 1, 2007 . 5:24 AM

Ok, we won the match with Qiaonan.

12 - 1.

Got nothing to say.

Just that, I'm kinda scared with the match with CHIJ Katong tomorrow.

So long as we all play hard, that's what matters.

GA, stepping!
CLARA!!!